Female Led Relationship - Cock-Locked & Loaded


Communication can lead to amazing life changes. Not the simplest life lesson to learn. It takes trial and error; failed relationships, the wrong life choices, the wrong men. 

I spent the better part of my early adulthood finding a man who would just shut up, listen, understand and respond meaningfully. When I stopped seeking, I accidentally stumbled upon just that. Fate? I'm doubtful that fairytale exists, but if it does... Thank you, Fate. 

As an OCD control freak, fighting against anxiety at every imperfect turn, I found a way to release some control. I took a great liking to the world of kink and fell in quickly as a submissive. Mousy personality was simple for me to feign (and no, I'm not lumping all sub's as mousy), that was my naive thoughts on what a sub was. Shut your mouth, do as your told, like it, learn it and love it... And then say "Thank you, Sir". 

It became my sexual identity, a huge piece of me. It felt important because I gave up the control I craved day to day for pain, degradation and what I thought was a healthy D/s relationship. It was NOT. 

Now, with my delicious and submissive partner and my pure equal in life (albeit, not within our safe space) I walk a very different path. Dominance has always been in me, "Leader of the pack" "Decision maker" all the things that used to stress my perfectionist mind out are all the things I now crave and desire. And with pure, adult, consensual discussion with my amazing sub, I have just that. 

I remember the first night we fully discussed his submissive nature, the fear I felt making such a big life change. The identity crisis my thoughts created before I even began my transition to his queen. He looked my in the eyes and said "You will make a formidable Domme". The trust and willingness to please me was written all over his face, emanating from his eyes.

I've never looked back, and his eyes on me have never changed.

Queen Aya

Jeremie Saunders